As we know it and I feel fine

I know I warned you that these posting would be few and far between but this is ridiculous…so here is the latest update. I really don’t have much to say; or I have so much to say that it is all running together and fighting for prominence causing me to freeze and say nothing. I’m really not sure…

I have now been at my job for over a year. I’m getting that itch again, that itch to find ’something better.’ In reality, i’m not sure i’m in my right mind. I have a job I like; i’m doing something that I really believe in, I don’t have to be here early in the morning and can stay as late as i need to, yet I’m just not sure i want to stay for another year…well, maybe if they offered a fat raise but you know how that goes.

One of my college friends just moved into town. It’s so good to have someone here who knew me before all of this. I’ve also been talking to one of my friends from high school a lot over IM lately. He is one of my favorite people and one of the most talented musicians I have ever met. He introduced me to a friend of his right before last Christmas and we all went out on the 23rd. They are both married, evangelical pastors (not in the Jerry Fallwell way - the real way) who smoke, drink and play amazing jazz, rock and gospel music. On the surface, this seems like a total contradiction but it’s really not. I won’t even try to qualify that, it just isn’t. Nothing in life is that simple or cut and dry

I think that is what has me losing my religion today. All of these relationships, people from the past who pop up and push your experience in a way you never expected, people who you wish would pop up but never do; we have the choice to make that we will let them in or keep them out or drag them in — or we’ll try to drag any part of them in even though they’re not here to keep them inside.

I know what you’re thinking: "what?"

That’s pretty much what i think about it too. I’m just rambling in my own head today.